An Update To My Terms

A picture of a scene in the office, ADHD joke

Remember when I posted about turning over a new leaf? I made a promise that I would post something daily. Not going to lie, it was a thing that I used to sell myself to justify my new purchase.

I think that I have ADD, and I probably had ADHD as a child. I watched some TikTok videos from people who are ADHD advocates, and there is a lot of points they talk about that I think apply to me.

I like to say that I am a writer. I like to write. I know you’re asking, “Cool story bro! What have you written? Where can I read it?” I also have this disruptive perfectionism streak. If I feel like I can’t do things right the first time, I find reasons to not even try. So, the answer is that I just haven’t written anything, because you can’t fuck that up.

I think that I want a career change and got fixated on figuring out how to do that. Never mind that I haven’t figured out what that is yet. Cybersecurity? Sounds neat. Planning? Awesome. Writer? Okay, why not? Maybe a video editor?

Then there is guilt about buying a laptop, and paying for a website that I don’t use. I am hyper-fixated on creating and making content to justify this “investment.”

I used to be so into cooking. I still am, but not to the degree I had when I was in my twenties. I didn’t have responsibilities like children, contributing to a partnership with my wife, and managing all the things that make you a parent. The culinary life wasn’t conducive to family life, at least not to mine.

So, I made a bold claim that I would try to write or produce some content daily, even if it were to be twenty words. It has been a week, and I have already reneged on my promise.

Instead of passive-aggressively abandoning my promise by quietly giving up, I’ll choose to dial back the promise to one piece of content a week, for each platform, IF I can. No stress. If I do, good. If not, okay. (But do I really want to pay for something I am not going to use?)

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